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Old Nov 11, 2015, 11:23 AM
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Originally Posted by ennui. View Post
this is something that really bothers me. i used to be a spiritual person. for a while i even went completely new age, dabbled in wicca, buddhism & other practices. though i'm not completely sure i identify with that crowd anymore, i still want to pursue something spiritual. what, i don't know. the problem is, i have been very depressed for a long period of time without respite. this depression seems to make it almost impossible for me to experience anything spiritual. for example, when i meditate, i might as well just call it sitting with my eyes closed and looking at the blackness behind my eyelids. 'cause that's what it feels like. it's like i can't get into it. i always come out of the meditation unfulfilled and feeling like i wasted time or something. it's like that part of me that used to be so connected to the spiritual has died. what happened??

Hello, I recommend not forcing it. If you are able, put your feet in some grass, touch the rough bark of a tree, look at cloud formations, crumple a crunchy leaf. Nature is a miracle, it will help you soften up and tune in a little bit. I have gone through the same experience. It is hard to even care about anything. But FORCE yourself to go out for at least 10 seconds breath in some fresh air, and bring something real back inside with you. Connecting in that way is so pure.
Thanks for this!
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