hi bluebear,
im sorry you can relate to some of the things. im 27 next month and outside my life is coming along great but inside i know what you mean about feeling alone and even at a stand still. a lot of the time i feel completely outside 'society' because i just dont understand how people are 'normal' so i cant be like them and, yes, they dont accept me. the depression just sucks me down now and then when i realise how 'wrong' i am as a person. i dont know if that makes sense. sigh.
im sorry you re so far down right now. you did help me though so thank you for that. hang in there
biiv