I hear you - I think the same thing over and over but then I ask myself "what if tomorrow is different?" somedays its almost impossible to dig deep and find a glimmer of hope that there will be sunshine or unicorns or something positive - if i can just hold on for one more day, one more treatment, one more med, etc...today i'm just taking it one minute at a time - i can't cope with looking at years ahead, let's try to get through today in the hope that tomorrow someone will have a breakthrough in a new treatment option