Under outpatient psych she can only see me once per week still. The other thing is the normal program for borderline and borderline traits. It's 2 groupd per week. I already did it about 12 years ago and didn't get much out of it, but she said it would at least be more support and coming to the hospital 3x week so that the group leaders and stuff can at least make sure i'm safe.

She said she and my pdov can't allow this kind of dangerous behavior to continue and it needs to stop because it's dangerous. She said she doesn't want to hurt me by abandoning me but she needs to put my safety first, and they think I'm in danger of accidentally killing myself or losing function in my arm,

Sometimes it scares me too