I don't know for sure why, but I do know it has left me both empty and full of tears.
For me, in part I suppose, it is because i can't seem to replace the brief moments in time that I did feel loved with the truth.
I don't understand that kind of truth, but it does run deep and it does not change.
I am not a blood relation of his though, but he has been my 'dad' since I was very young.
I did eventually give up and remove myself from that relationship, but it has never stopped hurting. I've been in therapy for many years, but that particular pain has never changed.