Like everyone else said, you're not stupid at all. It's very hard to reach out, to be able to call someone is a hard step. Please be patient with yourself.

I agree with Rapunzel, try to find different ways of dealing with these feelings. I also think that getting help is the key. If your not in therapy, maybe this would be an important step to help you recongize what's bothering you and learn new ways to cope.

I want to ask you, are you at a safe place right now? Do you feel safe in your surroundings or do you think maybe you need some extra help to get through this?? Please go talk to a professional. We are here, always. Keep talking to us and let us know how you are doing. I also encourage you to get some therapy.

Be safe and hang in there. We are thinking of you!!!

Justy