Boy the games we have to play with family , friends , etc....
Well , now that I'm alone after almost 40yrs of marriage , I can look at things from a objective perspective.
I've been abandoned by all of them. Even my own children. I was no saint but I didn't deserve this. All the birthdays ,all the holidays , the cooking ,the gifts , the love , the hate , the hurt ,the miscommunication ,the pain , the sorrow , the blood sweat and tears that go into a lifetime.

And you know what. In the end , none of it means ****.
A whole lifetime wiped out. Meaningless because all I cared about was how others felt.
Or maybe the times I was sick. What about the times I was healthy. Busted my *** to provide.
Yes I got a lot of good stuff out of it. Good feelings , being loved etc...

But at what price ? To eventually find out that I was just being used ?
Lied to. Mentally abused. Thrown away like a piece of trash ?
The only way I can move forward is to basically forget about the life I lived from
the day I was born up until now. 60 yrs. later.

The rest of my life is MINE . If you don't like me then just get out of my way.

I'm grateful for many things and think that there's a difference between being grateful and being thankful. Thanksgiving seems like the perfect opportunity for all the phonies to give thanks for all that they HAVE. Not gratitude for what they have but don't really deserve.

Like I always said , " you come in alone and you go out alone. "