I've noticed that during bouts of mania I tend to be somewhat manipulative of people. When my mind starts craving that excitement, that high, I start looking for people that could satisfy it. A lot of the times this makes me feel somehow despicable afterwards. Consciously, I disagree with the idea that other people are playthings for one's entertainment. It has never gone too far apart from a good time, but there is this feeling like people are puzzles that once I crack I can re-direct them however I want.
Does anyone else have this or is it a me problem?