For over a year now Ive been seeing a psychologist,it has been helpful and to be frank if I didnt have the support from him Id probably would be 6 feet under.Now Ive been dx'd as bp2 and seem to be stabilized most of the time on litium.I just dont know if I should continue with therapy.
The reasons are:
1-its a two hr drive one way to see T

2-Im afraid because Ive taken a day a month,off from work to see T,Im paranoid that work will ask why I need so much time off.I dont want people to know about bp.

-3-Therapy is usually the same thing. I just talk and talk......it always leads to the same advice the stuff that I just cant seem to follow.

4-Im sick of being doctored,I see pdoc which is an hour away,and my gp basically once a month.

5- I see T only once a month for an hr and a half......sometimes its not enough....a lot can go on in a month
6-I havent created any kind of bond with T,he is good and nice but no connection

It is my pdocs plan for me to continue with therapy,theres no doubt I could use T ,its just all these above factors that is making it so hard.

I just dont know what to do.