(((((((((((jacq))))))))) I think BB is right, the urge never goes away. And I know the feeling of being under pressure to live up to other people's expectations. I hope you can appreciate your accomplishment just for yourself, though. You *have* done really well. Be proud of yourself for lasting this long, and don't beat yourself up if it happens again. All of life is a learning process, including SI.

(((((((((jacq)))))))))

Love, Candy