Yah. She is a bit of a narcissist and would just use it as fuel to belittle me at the next rage session. He sent me some pictures of himself dressed and all I could do is think OMG. It did not turn me on. Just made me feel like... wow "and I thought I was messed up." I told him I would keep his secret but no thanks on the play offer. I also know I have some repressed memories concerning the abuse. Recent nightmares have surfaced. I can't afford therapy though. Thank you all for your input. I would appreciate any other input.