Thanks all. I just spent the past day or so stressing over how one is supposed to adapt to the reality about how everything we experience, feel, think, perceive is reducible to our brains d biology. How nothing beyomg the physical exists according to modern science, certainly nothing spiritual is valid except as self-delusion.

What this makes me think, is that one isn't really "allowed" to enjoy anything unrealistic, entertain the idea of extra normal things being valid except as entertainment.

When I wrote this, I had been exploring some, er, very fringey stuff. Then skepticism overtook me and I couldn't bear to let myself believe I could develop powers, that unidentified energy exists and can be manipulated. Now, however, I'm just stressing about concepts and feelings. How can you take those seriously, even talk about them as though they are valid things when they're just brain states, nothing more than firing neurons. How can you talk about things like love, justice, or spirituality like they're things when they can simply be located in the brain? They aren't things that come from nowhere; they're indistinguishable from anything physical because nothing else exists. Why discuss them as things in themselves? Maybe it's true that science has overtaken philosophy d usurped it as a source of personal knowledge. All we need to know is neuroscience and that will give us all the answers - and correct ones too - that centuries of literature grasped at.

Yes, the thought of this makes me kind of sick with anxiety. The certainty of it, and the limitation of it. No wonder I've been feeling spiritually zombified.