You know, I've discovered that if you mention it several times within any amount of time period, be it days, weeks, months, then you are considered dwelling in the past. I've been told to "get over it" by my sister...and by the parental abusers that caused my dissociative identity disorder. Okay, I would if I didn't have a fractured personality with hundreds of alters that affect every moment of my freaking day. I'm ruined as a whole by the hand of others and I'm just suppose to get over it, me and my others? We've got others that just won't get over it!

Mostly said by family. They got their own problems and they really don't want to be bothered by it. We've totally withdrawn ourselves from discussing our issues with anyone because everyone wants peaches and cream.

This all happened in the last few months. I've spent my life (30 years using) drunk and drugged till recent. Through a lot of time and massive amounts of drugs and alcohol, the pain has subsided and dulled up. We've also dissociated a bunch of the memories and they are buried very very deep.

I want to hire a therapist just to have somebody to talk too. They ain't got to say a word except nod their head.

I wish you healing and comfort.