I'm having a really really hard time. I'm thinking about just letting them put me in the full time program, as much as it scares me. Maybe after 6 months I'll be way safer and more stable and won't need to continue and can just go back to her. I think I really need serious i intensive help, really soon. I think I might even agree to being hospitalized just to keep me safe for a week or so. I think I'm in danger. I see my pdoc in the morning.

As much as it hurts and scares me, I have to admit she's right and I'm in trouble and I'm scared.