I feel like he loves me, not in a sexual way, but that he cares about me. Maybe he would **** me too if I wasn't his client. Sometimes I wonder though.

I couldn't ask him because I totally shut down during that session. It was the start of a flashback, I didn't want to hear it. He has acknowledged before that my love is real. I'm not asking him to love me back or do anything, but now that I've taken the risk to tell him how I feel I just want reality acknowledged. If my love for him is a projection then all of my love for everyone I've ever loved is projection...