My T has been working with me on my shame about my secret, sex, and my body. She's been finding articles I can read to help me normalize things. It has been really helpful. I actually had an ah ha moment this week. I realized that everything is connected. It all stems from the neglect and abandonment I experienced when I was a child. My T told me that I lost trust in human beings and turned to my pets for love, attention, acceptance, etc. This explains why I don't trust people, why I love my dogs over any human being. I always felt bad when I have to tell people, like my fiance, that they are not number one on my list. Luckily, my fiance is okay with it because he is the most important "person" on my list. But this also explains why I grieve more over an animals death than a hunans. I always just assumed I was weird. But according to my T, this is common for when a child loses trust in people, and have animals in their life.

It's just nice to know that there are reasons I am the way I am. That I'm not simply crazy.