I could not agree more I just got through with the second set of pills that had me do that actually abortion yesterday and I was in a lot of pain and really really high on pain meds for a good portion of the rest of the night.

There was a part of me that wanted hate myself for the decision I had made cause the child did matter to me. I do NOT care what any ever tells me for as long as I live this child and how it grew up and how well it would have been able to be taken care of did matter to me no questioning of that.

I made a huge mistake in saying I was ready to have a child when I in fact was not and now I am paying for it. Yes I could have kept the child and adopted it out if I wanted to...but the short answer to that is it was not what I wanted. Cause I knew in my own mind when I saw that kid I would feel the connection of that child that had grown in me for 9 months and I might have changed my decision or wanted to right as I saw him or her...and I could not deal with that.

I know that both me and my ex how had made this baby were and still are not in good places in our lives to be able to handle taking care of a child we still have a lot emotionally, physical and finical descion making to do in our lives.

I also had to take into consideration that i have had neurological issues with seizures for a lot of years of my life. Ever since I hit puberty, and no one could never know just why...but I was told for years that I would be considered a high risk pregnancy. and I knew I had not been going to see a nurologist like I really need to be if this was something that I truly wanted to have happen.

If you know you are going to be what medical doctor's consider a high risk pregancny that is a lot take in and think about.

and I had not taken any of this into consideration cause it happened so out of the blue and unexpectedly.

did I do something I feel poorly for Yes!

Do I regreat what I did Not really!

I know what I did was hard but I felt like with what I was dealing with I did the best I could and I took care of myself.....as best I could up until I took the meds to start the process cause I cared about myself...what was happening to my body.

but when I think about in truth I don't even fully know with ALL of my long history of health issues if i could have even carried the baby to full term. I don't even have the finances to allow me to go to all the specialists and right kinds of doctors I would need to. To be able to tell me those kinds of answers....so even if I had not gone to planned parenthood and done everything the way that I had....

I could have in theory ended up the same way as I have now. Cause I was so un prepared.

so if you as a person disagree I get that! and you have a right to think that way. But I stand by the choice I made....and feel it was the right thing for and what i could emotionally handle given the rough, rough circumstances what happened.