I'm so sorry things are so hard right now. I've never needed my T more than I do at this moment. Earlier I called him just to ask him to call back and leave me a message (because I'll have no privacy to actually talk to him on the phone the rest of this week -- about to leave town with some friends). But I need to hear from him. So I know what you mean about needing.

I don't know how to help, other than to just say talk about the brick-wall feeling and how much you hate it. You're already good at saying what you mean though. But maybe it'll help to say things indirectly -- like say this is what I thought I was going to come in here and want to say except that now I don't feel so open about saying it. Sometimes it helps for me to take a back-asswards approach like that 'cause you're still talking, even if you're acknowledging that the moment doesn't feel right.

Okay, well that's all I can think of. I hope you'll take care of yourself. Things will get better!!!

Sidony