So I am a fan of Tom Hiddleston (actor) and I recently had a nightmare where I was being sexually abused and he was in a position to help me and he didn't, he just stood there and watched. Then, I had another nightmare where a close friend of mine also witnessed me being sexually abused and didn't help me, she just stood there and watched.

So, I mean, they aren't outright hurting me but I wake up feeling sick because it feels worse that they didn't help and it makes me want to hate these people because now I have memories of them watching me being raped or otherwise hurt and they never do anything to help