Okay, so last night was terrible. Yesterday morning I took a second dose of Latuda, only at 10 mgs, and I felt TERRIBLE all day long. Super anxious through out the entire day, and then later at night I was like ENRAGED because people in my head wanted me to go **** myself and I wasn't able to do anything about it. The stared words aren't anything bad, it's just not allowed to be said on here. The thing I've heard with inner dialogue is that it's usually your own inner voice in your head, except with me, it's not me, it's other people's voices. Like intrusive thoughts almost in other people's voices. Olanzapine made me mad too... I feel bad because Latuda has done so much damage already only after TWO doses. I don't get it... and then the treatment team hints that I'm being non-compliant with medication, but you can't blame me for not being able to tolerate side affects!!
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