Thanks but im out everyday 12+ hours a day (job+chosen course - hoping to find a better job) and no time for anything else than my bad thoughts.
im back to SH, drinking, bine eating and all that... and i dont know how to stop it.
i take meds, have have docs and Ts but dont feel any of them can really help me. and i dont want to be hospitalized again. actually thats exactly the problem. feeling like my mask is slowly falling apart and it terrifies me more than my plans. i only would like to get to it right now and free myself but there are some rules i have to respect and follow so i feel trapped and im afraid i wont be able to pretend for much longer. letting it all out is out of question.... just need to be strong a little longer. i dont know how much longer though...
please, help me being strong.