I'm so sorry pink, that you are feeling the way you do at the moment. Stay safe and know that these hard times do pass. I know what you mean by the connection in therapy. I am much the same. Sometimes I get there and can hardly say a word, other times I manage to say more. It is never easy for me though. Many times I have been driving there thinking of all the things I'm going to talk about and when I get there.....blank. Something that has been a great help in getting things moving is taking my journal with me. If I cant manage to get going, I let her read parts of it. Sometimes I just end up with it on my knee. Don't feel bad about ringing T if he says to. If he didnt want you to he wouldnt offer. Thinking of you ((((((((PINK))))))))))