As much as being sad or anything else of the like generally sucks, I think people who have suffered understand how precious all the small things are when, if only for a short while, they feel okay. Someone who has never been burdened with heavy emotions are likely ignorant, and take everything for granted. When I'm sad, it seems like there is no hope in sight, ever. I just keep going, thinking that my family would hate me if I gave up on living. But, then, when there IS some sort of light, I just apperciate EVERY little thing. There are things I appeciate that a lot of people prolly don't even notice. Am I making any sense at all? Furthermore, I KNOW it has made me a more compassionate person, when someone says they want to die, and you KNOW PERSONALLY what that feels like, I think you're capible of compassion to a degree that a lot of "normal" people can't obtain. Also, it sort of connects you to people who have similar problems, or dissimilar problems, but problems none the less, and generally speaking, these people are more compassionate and caring than the general public, so that when you fall on bad times again, there's someone to try to pick you back up again. So, I'm not sure that the good outweighs the bad, and I hope that no one I love has to feel as crappy as I do sometimes, but there is SOME sort of a light side to the darkness, even if it's hard to see sometimes. I hope all this makes sense to someone!
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