I feel as though I've tried to talk to him, I haven't really been able to ask for another chance. However, when we have talked he's cried and says that he thinks about what it would be like if we were to get back together and doesn't think it would be any better.

I want things to be better. Most days I just want to be able to talk to him again and see him smile. I was so tired and angry all the time last year that I never really was able to tell him how much I loved him, and now I just wish I could tell him everyday.

I wish he could see how much I'm trying.