After reading all the posts I learned a lot and agree with a lot that was said.
I just want to clarify something and get some suggestions if possible.

The only reason I'm still on suboxone is because I need something for my pain. This is pain that you can't control with over the counter stuff. And it's chronic.
I'm getting the lowest dose possible and it's just barely taking the edge off.
I wasn't on narcotics for recreational use. It was prescribed for my pain.
I never got "high " off the meds they just did what they were supposed to do and that was control the pain.

Of course I could not escape the side effects which zombied me out.
THERE IS A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN MENTAL AND PHYSICAL ADDICTION.
Many people don't understand that.
I don't crave oxys or any other narc , and I don't ever want to take them again.
Now as far as the sub I know I can't stay on it forever.

The question is this. What and how am I going to control the pain after detoxing off of the sub?
Without some kind of medication the pain will be so much that I will go off the cliff !
I'm scared because I tried to go without the sub for a couple of days and was in such pain and the detox that I had to stop what I was doing or it would have ended badly.