i look back on my first T last fall and i know i'd have been hospitalized or dead if i hadn't had him, but i can completely understand how you could feel that way but feel like there wasn't/isn't a connection. i was attached to the guy like someone to a life preserver, but he never reciprocated... meaning he didn't do what even good therapists do in terms of making a bond with me.. quite the opposite really. But i couldn't understand that at the time, all i saw was the person i could cling to temporarily... and it kept me alive.

why not do both? Take a break from therapy and see how that feels and how you do.