god, I understand so much.

my boyfriend and best friend are constantly going on about how strong I am, how I can get past this, that I don't need to focus on it. they just don't understand. no one but us SHers do.

it's so hard to fight it but you know that you should. you wouldn't have posted this if you truly didn't want to fight this. and you just have to keep thinking about that. December 16th? that is AMAZING and you should congratulate yourself every day for getting past one more day. it's hard, yeah, but every time you doubt yourself, you're letting those mean little feelings creep further in.

one of my favourite quotes ever is "being brave isn't being fearless; it's tolerating a scary situation."

you can resist. more and more every day. stay strong, hon. =]