Yes, it sucks. I've been down in dark holes.

Call your T if you need to. It's what she is there for.

I did two weeks in hospital. It actually made a nice vacation from life problems for a bit. It is scary, but sometimes it is the help that is needed.

T and P-doc asked me if I needed hospital recently. I was close.

Don't have an answer for you, just wanted to let you know you are not alone in this.