i know you are all right...but i keep digging myself deeper and deeper into a hole of shame and humiliation....

i had an appt yesterday and said little to nothing...he's annoyed...i'm tired...it took every once of energy to go to the appt yesterday...and today it took all day to get out to the store to buy dog food!! ugh... on the bright side... i've been to out of it to cut!

i really dont think it is a good thing for me to be in therapy. i was having difficulties with my boss and went to a therapy session just to vent and my life spiralled out of control from there. i can't talk about what's inside me or what i'm thinking...it's debilitating...i don't know how to function like that....so i wont

if i quit therapy and just focus on getting a job and moving on....forgetting about the hospital, losing my job, being in therapy....i'll be able to move on....

but if i stay in therapy it's like picking at a wound and not letting it heal... i don't think therapy is the answer for every one.... i don't think it is the answer for me....