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Old Nov 13, 2015, 07:12 PM
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Thanks for your advice, I'm not ready to whistleblow yet,and might not ever do so, this week I have calmed down a lot and decided to not go back, but I haven't resigned, I'm just giving them sick notes.

Went to the dr again, got a month long sick note, anti-depressants, cos I realise now that I will keep doing this over and over again unless I control the depression during the winter, and I hate meds, and have tried mood stabilisers and anti-psychotics briefly in the past and they made me even worse, and my doc was resistant to give me the anti-depressants, but I pushed it, and he did, so see how that goes.

On the job front, I applied for the role of peer worker today,but hundreds of people apply for those types of jobs, but on the job description it mentions that the peer workers will still be on their recovery journey, so there would be more support and less judgment if I have a wobble again.

Continue to feel crap about showing my depression to the boss, said too much about it, and need to find a way, in the future, to compartmentalise again, I have done that in the past, wish I could learn to do that again, but I thought I was safe, I couldn't predict that this would happen.

Wish I could just win the lottery and not have all this crap and hassle to think about.
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