Caramee, you said exactly how I am feeling right now. I just can't stop crying for some stupid reason. I thought he and I were past all the boundaries discussions. I thought that he was finally seeing the real me behind the labels.

I was feeling so much better and thought maybe I could start reducing sessions soon. I feel like I'm back at ground zero.

Maybe it did scare him that I compared him to a partner but I certainly didn't mean him... I also said other names along with his who have similar personalities.

One was his assistant, who I would never think of in any other way than friendship. He's a funny guy ya know. He makes me laugh and god forbid I do that.

T also said yesterday that his assistant needs to be careful because he jokes with everyone like that even people he doesn't know. So he was trying, I guess, to let me know that there is nothing special about me.

You're right it can't be recovered. I am very very hurt. I feel like a patient now who had no right to her own feelings about someone who was helping her so much.

I don't think I'll have an issue telling him this next session. I just hope I don't cry.