Hi Angelic, the main thing I have learned in relationship experience is that whether you love him, or whether you think he loves you, whether you understand or don't understand does not really matter. It is what it is? I know all these feelings and thoughts matter to you but trying to figure out why someone else does what they do can drive you crazy. I know it may hurt but don't try to figure it out. You will probably never know the answer. I have had to come to this realization before, and once I accepted the fact that I cant do anything about it, or figure it out, life was a bit easier!!
Sorry if that is blunt, but it helped me when someone pointed that out to me