Shaymus, my dear sweet friend. It is awful to feel powerless and that is what you are describing. In order to hospitalize you you had to have been a risk to self or others. Your sister loves you and is trying to help. If I thought you were going to kill yourself or someone else I would have initiated a 72 hour hold too. In fact i have a brother with schitzophrenia and I can't tell you how many knock down broken bones (of the rescue , police etc) he has caused. My point is he hated us and resented us but when he was stable understood he was unsafe and needed to be in the hospital. Shaymus, I know how much you love your sister. Closing the door to her will only hurt you more. Open the door and be honest with her about how you are feeling and how confusing this all is. She loves you. She wanted to help you. I went through the same thing many years ago with non-family forcing a hold. I would have killed myself. The irony is that it was into an institution like you see in Alfred Hitchcock movies and it scared the hell out of me so I never told anyone I wanted to die again. You are in a tough spot, you are adjusting meds, you are vulnerable. You need serious, constant support. Let your family in, they want to help. It was not cruel. I am your friend, you are mine, remember i am Wise after all. Please let me know how you are.