Hey Don't, I am really proud of you for dealing with life. I know many people need meds etc, but there are also many who are not willing to deal with what life hands them and it is easier to get on meds.
You are right I do not know you, but from what you have written I think you are real. I see someone who has for many reasons had to deal with a lot of (excuse my language) crap that insecure and mean people have thrown your way.
You said you wanted to find someone similar, someone that cares. Well, I cant not tell you not to isolate, but obviously you will not meet anyone that way. But if you meet other people that are mean, walk away and don't look back. There are plenty of jerks in the world that get off treating others badly. You don't need that type in your life! Maybe some counseling sessions can help you discover who you really are and what you need and want. When I was a teenager a million years ago I went to counseling because I thought there was something wrong with me. My mom was mentally abusive and a real B. I went for about 6 months and discovered it was her problem, not mine. And since then I have stayed away from people that did not appreciate me for me, because I am a good person and proud of who I am.
You really need to hold your head up high and know how great you are!