lack of motivation is something I deal with when depressed. Some of it is I don't feel worth it, sometimes it is cause I feel I will just bugger it up, sometimes it's that I think no one will care. It's a neverending circle.

How do I get out of it?

My therapist started me tracking my activities and perceptions about them. What pleasure do I think I will gain from the activity and what pleasure did I actually get. When I started there was a huge difference. I had no expectation for pleasure but got a little from it. Then I expected a little more and ended up with a little more pleasure and so on. It is getting a little easier one step at a time to get out and to do things. Oh the anxiety of failure is still there but I am getting more motivated and less upset when something doesn't turn out great.