Jman,

In 2012 I was on the edge and a risk to myself. Luckily, I had a GP I trusted fully who got me changed onto the right med - Mirtazapine - and put me into emergency Counselling. This pulled me back, enough that when my Therapist abandoned me after my Cancer dx in May '13 I was mentally strong enough to continue. That is not to say my Depression is lifted in any way.

I believe that this is clearly not yet your time, you need to have the issues with the balance of your meds for your multiple issues addressed and you are in the position where talking will be of great benefit. Please speak to your GP or Therapist asap.

Dave.