Sorry for what you're dealing with. Yep...stigma.
I've been a depressed, sensitive most of my life and I have to say that...yes, there are sooo many out there, family included, that wish it would just go away...sweep it under the rug...deal with it...etc. ...heard it all!
We have been "conditioned" through society for countless generations how men are "supposed to act". So when we get depressed it is much harder to realize our vulnerability.
I've learned long ago that it's not my fault...but it still doesn't get any easier the older I get. I work in the male dominated building construction trade. I'll never share my life or depression with most of my male counterparts...cause it just would not help. I've learned who to talk to, through the years...due to my sensitive nature...and who to just "mask out". They just won't understand and I usually just get hurt more by letting someone who is not sympathetic to my nature...close to me.
I'd say...coming to this site is a good start for you...cause you could "relate" to others...and they you. Try to find "down time" for yourself whenever...exercise is a must for us men...burns off that pent up feeling we get...and learn who to share your time with. Practically every community has a depression support group. Know your self better. Know that it is O.K. to feel these feelings. There are sooo many men out there that are depressed and cannot or do not know what they are dealing with. It comes out as anger...anti social behavior...lost feeling...hollow...empty... I can usually spot it right away. Knowing that you have depression issues...for you...is the first step out of the black hole.
You're definately not alone on this....
take care now...
Dan