I do have disability. Since 2008. I'm just trying my butt off to get a semi normal life going. Sometimes I just feel like why even try?

I have so much drive, so much, it is partially why I cracked in the first place. Nothing goes according to plan, and I can't kill myself as much as I wish I could. I need money to write songs, my hobby, and I need money to get a place to live. Disability is too limiting. I want more out if life.