My boyfriend and I have been together for almost 2 years and he's never had a problem with my MI. I always felt I could speak my mind with him. I lost my job last March because of a panic attack so bad that I blacked out. The thought of going back to work makes me anxious. My pdoc said he considers me handicap and that I shouldn't be working. Well money is tight but my bf has always been understanding. The other day I brought up work and the option of SSDI. I put my hand to my chest and said "I'm getting anxious thiNking about it". He yelled and said "I'm sick of this anxiety crap! Get over it and move on!". I was totally caught off guard. He never yells. It frightened me. I just stayed quiet and didn't bring it up again. But now I feel like I have no support from anyone now. I feel like I can't talk to him and he seems like he couldn't care less.

Well tonight while at the pet store, I picked up an application. I was really excited because it seems to be a low stress place and I love working with animals. I'm 28 so for some, a pet store may be considered a highschool job. But to me, it's a miracle I even find excitement in working here at all. So when I got home I called my dad. Big mistake. My dad is very money hungry and he bases everyone else by how much money they make. So he shot down the idea immediately and here I am crying. My bf is just sitting next to me ignoring me. So now im pissed and crying.

Does anyone's else's SO's seem to get sick of your MI and the drama that comes with it? I can't help but to blame myself for bringing on drama. Is this my fault? Do I have to live my whole life keeping my illnesses, feelings and my struggles to myself?

Dx: BP2, PTSD, bulimia/anorexia
Seroquel 300mgs
Trileptal 300mgs
Buspar 45mgs
Ativan 1mg PRN
Vyvance 70mgs PRN