oh honey, I am sorry. I understand the dad thing. I am glad you are safe. You seem to have an issue with your meds and wanting to see how it feels to be high and I wonder if you should bite the bullet and get them dispensed daily? No risk that way. Just a suggestion. By the way, I have done that too. Instead of one pill in a.m. and one in p.m., both in p.m. All I am doing is shooting myself in the foot though. Be well Shaymus.