I think about divorce daily. My biggest issue is money.
But when I look at the situation as a whole, where I am more than half way thru my life & next to nothing to show for it I wonder why I'd wanto make such radical changes at this point. Isn't the grass always greener? If I'd get to the other side, to a freer side won't I naturally look back & say god I was so stupid to leave such a great set up. Yet another mistake made. I know myself pretty well & the mistakes I've made. Now I've become gun shy to make any moves. Like my feet r in cinder blocks.
Loneliness is not attractive
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"Doubt is like dye. Once it spreads into the fabric of excuses you've woven, you'll never get rid of the stain."
Jodi Picoult
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