...right now, at work, under my office desk. im at work alone, others left, i dont know where to go, what to do...

i'd normally use bad coping skills but i have no strenght left in me to do anything other than laying down and writing this hoping that talking will help a bit. im at the end of my rope, i cant take it anymore.

torn, twisted, wrenched inside, lost, confused, hurting, finding myself extremely disturbing and rotten....helpless, hopeless. i take meds, have docs and Ts. but i dont feel any of them can help me. asking for help to them threw me in this mode actually. there isnt any hope for me. i dont know whats wrong.... i AM wrong. indside.

please, help me... just a bit, i dont deserve it but just a bit, please.