I am assuming your kids are all grown?

Tell them you are deathly unhappy, they clearly love you and will bring you back home.

You say you love this man, why?

You have not described anything remotely lovable, in your own words you've described "3 years of hell" and talk about "surviving" in Canada....

There's way more to life than surviving hell.

You already wasted so much time with husband number one and you had the courage to leave. Don't carry on repeating your mistakes, life is too short.

In case you're unsure, this marriage is clearly also abusive, you are being mentally, emotionally and financially abused.

My opinion, go home to your children.