2 weeks ago this was exactly how I felt. But the combination of several situations and incidents yanked me from such Depression to a more stable state where I could better cope. HOPE is the reason for the change. A lack of hope has always been the missing factor whenever I have been in such a painful state.

How do we get hope? It doesn't seem to be something we can garner ourselves rather something that triggers it from outside. In my case it was my daughter reaching out to me, my son spending some time with me and a major game changing day.

My suggestion then isn't to tell you to be hopeful because that doesn't seem to be something we can just do. Instead I think we need to ready ourselves for when something happens to give it to us. We need, I think, to be actively be on the lookout for such a moment to come into our lives. When we are so Depressed it is hard to see those moments; perhaps even we choose not to see them.


Today I wake up looking forward to my day.