I'm really really sorry too hear what you're going through.

I was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis earlier this year. I was really distressed to get the diagnosis. It took me months and a lot of meds to get over that first major flareup. It was a lot of experimentation with various types of med. At first I was so sad to wake up and look at my "breakfast" aka too many pills.

I skipped work a lot because I was afraid of having an accident.

I finally now have a good idea what foods are aggravating but it took months to figure it out.

It's really hard to talk to doctors about food. You would think, they're doctors, they SHOULD know about nutrition - oddly enough most doctors don't have a clue and they'll even admit it.

Food is the key thing here. From the research I've done with IBD,Crohn's,Colitis - every individual seems to have completely different triggers from one another. I found that using the internet to read about about others reactions to certain foods helps. It will at least give you a warning that a certain food is a common trigger so you should try it in a small portion and see how you do.

Now I'm at a level of normal and it feels like that depression is far behind me.

Please hang in there. It takes a while to feel like you're in control again but it does get better and easier to manage.

I've had diarrhea issues as well. Talk to your doc see what they might think about you trying Imodium (it's over the counter). That's done wonders for me. I've only taken it maybe 3 times - but it helped control/stop the 'd' on some really bad days.

I hope you have some relief soon.