I spend most of my days feeling like a failure to some degree, either personally or professionally. I can't really take a compliment because it always sounds so back-handed. I am always feeding myself negative thoughts in my head, but they don't always overtake me, but when they do, it hurts. It's like all the negative in the world around me just attaches itself to me like a magnet amd drags me down with it.

The best way I can describe this is that I have happy days (graduation, wedding) but I am not happy. I don't enjoy life. I live it, but don't enjoy it.