I spend much of the year depressed. Ocassionally I have a period of feeling better. While I can enjoy things, the sadness always seems to lurk looking for a way to take hold. The difference between the two is whether or not I have hope in my life. Your statement of living without enjoyment rings true for those times I wage the Depression battle. I simply go through the motions.

I realise I have been depressed most of my life - even in childhood.