Lately, I have noticed that I am quick to anger. I nearly got into a physical confrontation with a stranger yesterday, but luckily I didn't. I am having a very difficult time with work. My business is not doing well and almost all of my savings are gone. I have spent alot of time at home taking care of my 14 month old daughter since she was born and my business and energy for my business has suffered. My wife is also in a stressful job and I have spent years trying to deal with her emotions about her job - it feels like every day is consumed with her issues regarding her job. Plus I am trying to find a job and have had no luck. I feel overwhelmed and angry at everything and everyone (except my daughter) because I have done what I was supposed to do in life and I find myself broke, in a relationship that is often unfulfilling and lacking the love and support I want, running a failing business, and unable to get a job. I wish to god I just cry, but I can't. The tears won't come. Yes, I have thought of ending my life but I am choosing to try to find help and perspective because I love my daughter so much and I don't want her to be without her father. But the man I am now is not the man I thought I was and always wanted to be. My wife has become the focus of so much of my anger because everything is about her stupid job and the stress it causes her. So sick of it. I am sad and angry. But need to change things. Being honest here helps.
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