Yeah i think maybe reading this that maybe in a week or two i might talk to her and ask some questions. At this point tho id be irritable at best with her which probably wouldnt be a great place to start from.

I do seem to have issues with meds huh? I dunno why i thought it would be fun to take 30mgs but when i woke up like 30 hours later i was in a huge fog and i dont even remember half the stuff i did. It obviously was dangerous and not smart. At the hospital they changed my meds up and im tapering off the lexapro and starting the effexor and building it up. I think i went two days at 37.5 mgs and now am supposed to take 75mgs for the next 7 days and then 150mg. So the tinfoil lining to all this is i got my meds changed something i was feeling very frustrated with. Heres another question tho. If all these meds are SSRIs how come some will work better than others? I mean if i have a headache and i take tylenol and it doesnt go away i dont go buy advil thinking that will work.

It definately was an experience emily let me tell ya. I had a roommate who was as tall as me which was nice. He snored like a buzz saw tho but i had earplugs and slept fine. I might be the only human on earth who thinks this but i actually liked the hospital food lol. Im a lil nervous about seeing my t on the 25th tho as the session right before all this happened he had me sign one of those papers saying i wouldnt try to harm myself. I feel a lecture coming my way. And yes i really do feel lucky to have all the people here to ask questions to. In my head i was feeling very betrayed and to me it seemed like she was using love as an excuse to take away my freedom. But maybe she really was just very concerned. Ill have to think this thru Thanks again.