Honestly - sex isn't everything. Movies make everything out to be more than they are. My sex life has been all but dead for the last 10yrs. I will tell you this - if it only took the act of sex to make a person happy, some of the things that include sex then certain criminals would be seen as healers and those acts would not harm us - but the act of sex DOES send an endorphin to the brain that can help to fight depression. That said however, that same endorphin can be produced by manual sexual stimulation as well. What you are wanting I would think is not so much the sex itself - nor the sense of pleasure it brings - as it is the attention and closeness of that other person in that moment in time. What I would ask you though is this: what if you were sharing the act of sex and the sensation of that pleasure, and came to find you felt uncomfortable in that person's closeness or otherwise jyst didn't like it...how would you react?

This is the reason people are told to take their time getting to know someone first, why some wait til marriage, and why some end up preferring to remain as just friends... Honestly, sex isn't everything - your sense of "self" is most important- the rest is just experiences